My whole life changed in 4 short hours

My husband asked me for a divorce.  There was no real lead up.  We weren't arguing any more than our usual banter/bickering that we've done for years, which has almost evolved into it's own little mutated flirting.  We were snuggly and laughing on Friday night.  Saturday he took the baby and spent the day visiting his family- not something to cause alarm, he was helping them fix a car.  He came home Saturday and he was suddenly standoffish....clipped one word answers.  I pressed him for what was wrong after the baby was in bed, and after avoiding me for a while he said he was tired of us not getting along.  We talked about it for a bit, seemingly things were okay, but maybe still a bit tense.

Then today, boom.  I got the cliche 'we need to talk' thing....and four hours later my life is turned upside down.  He wants a divorce.  I don't.  But I lose.  Not...really sure what to do right now.  I'm alone in our apartment.  I've packed up a few totes worth of my things...plenty plenty more to go.  I'm a stay at home mom, or at least I was...so I don't currently have a job.  Gonna have to figure that out quick.

My son will not hurt for a place to stay, I know that.  I may be able to stay with my grandmother for a week or so to get things sorted out.

Today's not my favorite....and I have no idea where it goes from here.  All I know is that my chest feels hollow and raw.  


What little positive thoughts I can (barely) muster at the moment, I send out to you guys.  I hope your lives are going better, and that if you're able to be happy right now, that you are.  If you could send some warm fuzzy vibes back my way, I could sure use 'em.  

Thanks for reading....I'll keep you updated.